Yeah tonight was a great reminder why I was excited to escape the NM Furry group like... I can't even begin to describe the shit storm it was.
Getting a sudden onslaught of upset messages from my entire friend group, even more than that thanks to Telegram, AND even more thanks to FB messages, skype, and etc.. It is not an exciting. It is not something I look forward to.

Being the person people run to is exhausting, but I love the people in that group that I had to leave behind and I am still in a position where I can help them defend themselves when they need me to.

That being said. The hosts of a party should not be:

  • Assuming consent while getting naked in the public area of the GUESTS. Especially at an all ages party. Even if the minors are 'gone'.

  • Yelling at guests while completely shitfaced. Because they are upset.

  • Threatening assault on your guests.

  • Try to spread some sort of 'pity me' Witch Tears when an entire party is calling you on deplorable behavior that has happened.

  • Try to pull the 'Our house our rules' card when it comes to consent. The END.

I'm just so fucking tired of their behavior and I'm so glad to see people policing the local group, standing up for themselves, and speaking out when they are uncomfortable.


I know Carol is still trying to spread some sort of rumors about me still, but eh. (I mean. What is new there?) So far everything I hear is outlandish, or just hilarious in context so. I mean everyone turns around to warn me about it immediately, and I just laugh it off. It's just an old woman trying to defame me for some strange reason? It almost feels like an obsession at this point?

I know Sabot called me a 'cunt' and the 'fandom is better off without me' when I was face-called by the people who missed me and wanted me included, but then again he's been so disconnected from the fandom outside of his backyard I don't think he knows what the fandom truly is anymore. (Even the fandom IN his backyard)   I don't feel bad that he dislikes me. I don't need people to like me to be a good person.


I feel as if the current hosts are out of touch, of of date, and disconnected from the fandom as it is now.

It's unfortunate, because they keep pushing amazing people away; and I'm no longer there to catch them.

It's unfortunate, because they're killing their own group.


I'm watching the fallout across all the platforms. I'm genuinly wondering if people will forgive and forget again (as I have seen time and time again).. Or if this is the final nail in a long-built coffin for the local community.

I'm going to screen comments to this post. I don't expect it to go over well. I'm calling people out.

There is no way tonight is going to go over well. I'm going to give you the right to reply, but I'm going to censor you for the sake of the people you hurt.



I'm 26 today. Not much to report in general at the moment.

Live journal is mostly dead; Except communities. Not much of a reason to post here.

I am on Twitter, Tumblr, Skype, and Telegram. In case anyone wants to get in contact with me ever.
It should be fairly obvious what username I'd be using in these places.




(There is a before picture, but it is on Tom's phone, not mine.)

We actually have the subfloor down again, and the wiring like, started.


The white thing in the wall is actually the shelves in the bathroom, and the shiney thing is the back of the bathroom medicine cabinet.

I'm going to have a dishwasher, and an even tile floor! (Not shitty linoleum was a bad subfloor!) And tile counter tops! (With MORE counter top space!) and a microwave vent hood <3

Here is my dishwasher: It was a damn good price at 450! (Seeing my price limit was 500, and without the sale I would not have been able to get one this nice or quiet.)
This is the Microwave Hood: (roughly, It's in the same models, I think) for 120

I'm really glad I did research of dishwashers weeks ago. It was totally worth it to walk in and be like "Oh fuck, this is a steal." and order one. If anyone needs a good website about features on dishwashers / sound levels / etc, let me know. I found a pretty decent one that helped me make decisions.

I don't know shit about hoods, but for 120 I was not going to pass it up. (It was a display model they were getting rid of, and 20% off the clearance price.)

At this point Tom needs to get the electrical done, the dishwasher hook up in, and then we are good to throw up walls and tile the floor. Tiling will probably be my job. I plan to do pretty large floor tiles, medium-sized tile for the counter tops, and glass tile for the back splash. I'm really excited. They're going to be mostly earth-tones, because  the back splash I chose it mostly earthy tones.

That being said, the counters may just be white. Also I'm going to look into getting a 1ft butcher's block counter top section. We have a section that may be good to be just a built-in cutting board.



I feel miserable living in my own home.

I hate my mother so much, I wish I was back on vacation. At least then I didn't have to deal with an incredibly ungrateful burden.

Every day I wake up and hope she is dead.


Cake Pops

I made these for an Easter party we are going to.
They are red velvet cake, held together with cream cheese frosting, and dipped in white chocolate + sprinkles.
Tasty, and somewhat pretty! :)
Although I made 49 of them!
Happy Zombie Jesus Day!

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    cheerful cheerful


It went good. Gall bladder is out and I'm on morphine@ I'm very sore all over, but I managed to walk.
They are holding me again tonight, and hopefully releasing me tomorrow.

I apparantly was a fighter when I came out of anesthia, and was told to watch my language. All I remeber was waking up in severe, crippling pain

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. I'm in the hospital over night tonight. Surgery at around 11 am. Should be out today unless something goes wrong
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    high high

Furfright / work

Went to furfright and had a blast. :) The entire convention doing the time warp was pretty awesome! Overall I like the con hotel. and would love to actually stay in it next year! (The hottub looks nice~)

I started working for Domino's last weekend. It's a fun job so far, they pay minimum, even as a driver, and I get a dollar per delivery for gas (Which is where that delivery fee goes to, you cheapskates!)
I didn't get tips at some houses, because they do not realize that the delivery fee is not a tip. :| Which really annoys me.


Jesus fucking christ, turn on your goddamn porch light and give me a clue that I am delivering to your house.
Especially if:
A) Your street is DARK, and no one has lighting.
B) Your house numbers are NOT LIT AT ALL. (No, really. I ended up parking in the middle of a street and walking house to house checking the numbers, because the lights that "illuminated" the house numbers were pointed away from all their TINY plaques.)

ALSO:Don't ask your driver for pocket change. Really. Just include it in the tip. I'd rather get 1.90 than 2.00 straight, and making change for 90 cents.. I am only allowed to carry 20, or I get fired. Do you really think I'm going to carry five dollars in pocket change to do that for you? No. Luckily I had some in my car, so I did not have to eat a dollar in my tips/paycheck to make the customer happy.
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